#069

Day 19.

Day 19. Reta, 4mg. 3:47am. Heart rate 178. BP 180/130. Sitting upright in bed because lying down felt like drowning. Did not wake my wife. Could not explain what I had been injecting. Drove myself. Told the ER it was pharmacy tirz. They ran $11,400 of workup. Found nothing. Discharged at 7am with a referral to cardiology. Threw out $2,800 of reta that afternoon. Eight months later: the palpitations come back maybe twice a week. Cardiology calls it anxiety. It is not anxiety. My wife still thinks it was a panic attack. I will let her keep thinking that.

Anonymous user report. Not medical advice. Peptides discussed are not FDA-approved for the uses described.

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Published May 26, 2026